9.29.2009

So It Goes...

I wanted to feel important, so I made this here blog...

Where to start? As they say, sometimes, life happens quickly. Well, while life is happening quickly, I feel like I'm moving too slow. Sure, I got an early start on things, but for the past year I've made such little progress. Reaching advanced personhood is difficult, and I'd rather just close my eyes and go to sleep for a while. Sure, I've learned tons this past year, and finally decided what I really want to do with my life. But, tangible progression? Little to none. I'm finally starting, well, some. I get my A.A. degree in December, I'm soon going to learn to drive, I WILL get a job soon, dammit.

Most importantly, I still want to work on fixing myself, mentally, physically, metaphysically, socially, etc. Although I feel content with who I am, there's a reason I have biannual mental breakdowns. I need to get to the root of the problem, and maybe once I do, I can finally devoid myself of all pills attempting to stabilize my brain juices. I'll be the one in control... mind over body, right?

Oddly, I rarely feel lonely anymore, which was a big problem. I also now feel full when I eat. I think these two factors say something in regards to my quest towards self-actualization (a quest that always has it's ups and downs, peaks and plateaus.) I think I'm finished with existential meltdowns this year, I always have to remember to never take anything seriously.

This brings me to my next point... besides my personal development quest, I'm also working towards writing more. I decided I want to be a comic... stand-up, writing, acting, the whole nine. If I take things too seriously, this will seriously hinder my humorous capabilities. Even the miserable moments can make for a great joke (at least in retrospect they can.)

So here it is, my first blog, hopefully I keep up with this one (I have a tendency to never finish what I start,) and develops into something more... so here's the starting point, the starting point of one girls quest towards well... being a better person.