Long time no update... in fact, it's been a half a year. I need to stop being lazy and just WRITE. I know I haven't written in a long time because I wanted to write about my trip to Israel, but alas, I just never got around to finishing that piece.
I could recap the whole year, but I think it's better if I discuss the present. I mean, so far, this year has been a helluva ride, but I'd be only writing about it for memories sake, and I'd rather just write what's on my mind now...
I've started to pick up on signs this year. I'm realizing more and more how the universe attempts to teach us lessons by sending certain things our way. Be it a DUI or getting fired from a job... or, maybe it's just stupid luck, and there's no forces controlling us but ourselves. Regardless, I'll take all these "signs" for what they could or could not be and utilize them as lessons.
Currently I'm attempting to move back to Philadelphia. It's not gonna be as easy as before, but it's what I need to do for my mental health. I haven't told all my friends around here mostly because I don't have too many friends around here anymore. Besides my 2 best friends, it's a rare thing to talk, let alone see any of these kids. And, really, I don't even care much. Friendships reliant on memories aren't friendships, they're characters in previous chapters of your life. We've outgrown each other, and I feel like a miserable fucker when I'm around them, so why bother?
"Why bother?" It seems to be my motto these days. Even though the pace has picked up some and I'm trying rather hard to accomplish certain things, much of the time I'm doing this instead of that. Everyday is a new day, so why do I keep waiting for something "new"? I'm making excuses.
Wish I had more to say. This is a shitty post after 6 months of not writing. Inspiration, please slap me in the face... oh well, it's a start (again).
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